Being a bride has proven to be one of the biggest challenges to me. It is testing my patience to the max and really showing me who is accountable and not. When Cody and I decided to have a 6 month engagement, we knew there would be challenges. Due to the way I am, my level of creativity, and the dream of how we want our wedding to be, pressure has been placed in places that test our limits. The other day I realized how easy it is to get carried away with the little things; the minor details that on any normal day, would not bother me in the slightest– but for a day that Cody and I have talked about countless times, a side of me I hope to never see again has risen.
I thought to myself, "now I know where the term 'bridezilla' comes from!" I have a whole other sympathy for women who have been called one. Here is the deal– being a bridezilla is not acceptable, and really is no excuse for being a big 'B' to the ones who love you. But for the ones who love you (me) it is time to take a step back a realize that the two people who matter most in any wedding are the bride and groom. This is the norm right? Well, I am sure many people have got the aunt janes, uncle bobs, and grandma berthas, who can't help but put their two-cents worth in. Am I right? The truth is, everyone has the grandma who gets her feeling hurt when you don't want to use her idea, the person who gets joy from pushing your buttons, the 'commiters' who really haven't done much of what they promised to do. The question is: how do we handle those people. Tell them all to get lost and don't show up to your wedding! ... Of course that is what we would all love to do in the heated moment but realistically that isn't the smart thing to do! haha. We should take a step back and realize that this one day should not make or break us. Yes it will be the best day of your life yet and yes, you want it to be absolutely perfect, but nothing should get you down on a day that is meant for the exchanging of vows.
At this point in our engagement, the moment I am looking forward to most is not the countless details, personalized favors, the smiles on our friends faces, the atmosphere that screams 'cody & christa', not even that first glance caught from Cody when I walk down the isle– no none of those things make my number one. But here it is, a secret I have not shared with anyone, and that most people may not even think about; my number one on my list of excited things is the moment Cody will grab my hand when I get down the isle. That first touch (in what less then 24 hours but seems like weeks!?) that proves how real it all will be, the passing me off from my dad to the man I will spend my life with. The thought of that moment is what is getting me through those times when I feel like what I would imagine a newborn vampire feels like (just kidding...). Its the moment and touch I will remember for the rest of my life!
happy monday to all you brides who get me!